Mellowing the 'how'. How can it be done ~ Abraham Hicks.

Hello,

I've been doing the wallet process recently. I've heard Abraham say that the process is one of the best for feeling good about, and therefore manifesting, money. I've done it a lot, but I can't feel so light in it. One of the reasons is that I just don't know what to buy. Most things I really want cost hundreds if not thousands of pounds. For example, a Mercedes Benz car, a large detached house with great land. A new guitar, etc, etc. Yeah sure I go on ebay, set the amount to search for up to £100, but I find it hard to get excited about those things. My mind is always focused on the bigger things, and thus, how I haven't got anywhere near enough money to be able to afford them. I know I know, that's not the best attitude, and I know that the wallet process is supposed to get you into a mindset of being able to spend over and over, and therefore allow in massive abundance. I get that, I do, but it feels like I'm just going through the motions in order to get the massive abundance. I'm not truly in the flow of it. Rather, it feels like I'm trying to get 'over there' and thus never getting there.

Whatever the process it seems, even one as good as the Wallet Process, the 'How' always shows it's head. 'How, how how!" Well how!" How will this money turn up" is the constant background noise going on in my head. At some point of doing any process, I always stop to say "ok well how is this going to happen now then?". And then I figure that it's up to me to try and work that out. So I try and find ways, hitting brick walls constantly. Then I give up because I just can't bothered, and even worse I stop doing the processes because I believe they aren't working. They do work though, it's just me that gets in the way.

'How' do I mellow the 'how'? lol. Well that's one how that I may well be able to answer. In fact just by saying that I have mellowed the 'how'. You see I am confident in my creative ability to write about how I feel and form an answer that satisfies me. I'm an open channel when I write. Where do my thoughts even come from? When I'm writing now, the words just seem to flow. Sure I'm thinking, but at the same time, often not really thinking that hard. It's just pouring out of me. I started this blog post with the title and then when on to write the post, without even thinking of what the solution would be. I just knew I would have an answer. This is because I have no resistance to finding the answer to this question. However does that translate into having no actual resistance to the 'how' when it comes to money.

Well it can if we focus on the fact that I always have an answer to my own questions. I can answer the question here by giving examples of how other people unexpectedly came into large sums of money. I can write examples of how other things have come into being for me, many in creative and unexpected ways. Yet no matter what I write, there will still be the "yes but how is the large sum of money going to come? You haven't answered that question?" Why can't you answer that now?"

Resistance, pure and simple.

So, how can I do more allowing? By doing the things that put you in an allowing state more of the time. You see that, I had the answer right away. And what was I doing when I received that answer. I was typing! Yes typing away. So, maybe the answer is just to type away. I think when I've written blog posts, or listened to an Abraham vid, I've been in the flow but also done it with somewhat an attitude of "well I've listened to hat or written that, and now I'm ready!". And then off I go into resistance again, into brick walls. You see it was during the listening or the writing that I was allowing. The listening or the writing isn't something that you do, so then you have the tools to go off and do something else. The allowing during those times is where it's at. What I'm getting at is instead of trying to come to a final conclusion, ie, an ending to the blog post or "I've heard that vid so now I'm ready", instead you do that thing because you're in the flow when you're doing it, and that's what you want. You want to be in the flow. It is in that flow that the answer to all things come. When you're in that flow you're not thinking about the how to anything, because you're too concerned about being in the flow.

This may all seem like rambling, but it's resistance free rambling. The fact that I like to work things out, is an ok thing. I used to write tons of posts on my own forum, about how this all works, about figuring it out. I became tired of it because I thought that I was trying too hard. I enjoyed those posts though, I really did. I think I just self judged myself, thinking things should be happening. Like what am I doing writing all these blog posts, when nothing is actually manifesting that I want. But what I really want is to be in the flow, and when I was writing all those posts, I was in the flow, just as I am now. It's about releasing all self judgement. So what if I write loads of posts about how to get to something, about this perspective or that perspective. If it's what I enjoy doing, then that's that. It's like totally accepting what does it for you. I could write in this blog forever. If it's what makes me happy, then so be it. It's only that self-judgement that gets in the way. It's about recognising that you're in an allowing state, and enjoying that allowing state because it is enjoyable, and just being ok with that.

Thanks! :D